gaaah!!!

WHAT is actually happening to me???
WHAT is actually happening to my life???
WHAT is actually happening to my heart???
WHAT???
I'm SICK enough thinking about this RUBBISH thing!!!
I can't think what I should think . . .
But . . .
I keep thinking of something that I shouldn't . . .
WHY???
WHaT is actually CONTROLLING my self??? my mind??? my heart???
is it just LUST??? DESIRE??? PASSION??? kind of thing like that???
Urghhh!
i'm TOTALLY sick of this thing!!!
HOW can I think like a STUDENT think???
HOW can I think like a FOURteen years old STUDENT think???
HOW can i STOP thinking about HIM???
he keep HAUNTING my mind . . .
believe me . . . i NEVER wish to think about him . . .
it is ALL OF THE TIME . . .
i really-really CAN'T stop thinking about him . . .
me myself DON'T know why . . .
when i give a push to FORGET him . . .
believe me ,  there will be SOMETHING that happen to make me falls back to him . . .
WHY???
why ME???
why NOW???
and why HIM???
me myself don't have answers for my own Q . . .
i don't even have IDEAS to create even AN answer . . .
HOW can i wash my MIND to get rid of him from my HEART???
my MIND say yes , then my HEART say no . . .
when my MIND say no , then my HEART will say yes . . .
always . . .
now ,  my HEART is not doing what i want . . .
the same goes to my MIND!!!
i have NO solution for this PROBLEM . . .
INNER PROBS are driving me CRAZY!!!